Long Niall imagine

It's december. The snow is falling down from the sky to cover the black streets and green fields. You are sitting in your and Niall's bedroom looking out of the window. It's 2am and Niall is fast asleep. You can't sleep. You don't want to sleep. You don't want to wake up to another day just to go through the same shit you go through every day. It's hard to care about anything when your world is falling down. The worst part is that no-one knows, not even Niall. You can't tell him, he wouldn't understand. He would take you to the psychiatrist and that's the last thing you need. You don't want to hurt him, it's more safe for him if he doesn't know. Besides, who would love someone who has a really bad depression, who cuts, who hates herself more than anything, someone who doesen't even want to live? Then again, in the end of the day Niall is the reason for you to still wake up to another day. You love him to death. He's your everything. You've been together for almost a year and things between you two are perfectly fine. He is the best boyfriend someone could ask for but the problem is that you don't deserve him. After about half an hour of just sitting there and staring outside you hear Niall waking up. "Hey babe, what are you doing there?" "Oh, nothing Niall.. I just couldn't sleep" You say with a tired voice. "Awwh Y/N, come here" He says tapping your side of the bed. You get up and slowly walk to the bed. You lay down next to him as he puts his arm around you and kisses your cheek: "Try to sleep love, good night." "Okay, good night Nialler" You say and close your eyes. You still have difficulties to fall asleep because your mind is trying to explode, but gladly you have Niall close to you.

Next day you wake up quite late, Niall is already awake and he has made breakfast for you two. You walk to the kitchen and sit down next to him. "Good morning princess" He says kissing you deeply. "Morning" You answer. He gives you a questioning look but you just ignore it. You feel horrible. All you want to do is scream your lungs off and hurt yourself. "So Y/N, you remember I told you a few days ago I got this day off?" He asks. "Yeah, what about it?" You say. "Well.. I kinda have to go to work today.. We need to record one more song and then I have two weeks off. I hope it's okay to you." "Yeah, it's fine Niall" You say munching your toast and staring into the floor. "Good, I have to leave in 20 minutes and I'll probably be back at 6pm" He says trying to get an eye connection with you but you just keep staring at the floor. "Okay." You say getting up from your chair but when you try to walk past Niall back to your bedroom he catches you by your wrist and gets up himself. "What Niall?" You ask tired. "Nothing.. I just wanted to say I love you more than anything" He answers stroking your cheek. "I love you too Niall" You tell him "But can I go back to bed now? I'm tired as hell." "Sure you can babe, I'm going to leave now." "Okay Niall" You say walking to your bedroom. "Call or text me if you need something, love you!" He shouts and walks out of the door. Finally you're alone. You bury yourself under the blankets and pillows which are in your bed and start thinking: "Is Niall guessing something? Does someone know about my situation and has told Niall about it? Oh god I need to do something to myself, I can't live like this for the rest of my life. I can't live like this and I'm not going to get help so this won't get any better.. Only option I have is to...kill myself. No. I can't do that, I don't have enough courage. But then again, who would even miss me? Niall will get over me as soon as he got Demi, my family doesn't even love me and my friends have left me. I really have nothing to lose. Even directioners hate me! I'm useless and stupid.." Your mind is running faster than ever. You're panicking and that's why you need to get up and get a glass of water. You decide to take a look at twitter. It may not be the best idea but that's what you do. You start reading your mentions even though you know you shouldn't. "@Y/T/N Die, you stupid whore." "Guess what? @Y/T/N is a fat slut who only cares about Niall's money. D.I.E!!!" "I have no idea why Niall even is with @Y/T/N ! Look at her! I've never seen someone that ugly!" "That whore @Y/T/N stole my man, I'm going to rip her head off when I meet her!" Quickly you find yourself sobbing like crazy but still you continue reading. "Fat. Ugly. Whore. Who? Well, @Y/T/N!" "@Y/T/N You fucking bitch what do you think you're doing with Ni? I'm going to kill you!" "@Y/T/N Die! No-one will miss you!" "Why is @Y/T/N alive? Simply just to kill herself!" "@Y/T/N Even a pig is prettier than you!" As you roll further your mentions just gets worse. "Let's hunt @Y/T/N down and then show her what is the rollercoaster of life!" The hate is getting to you more than before but you just can't stop reading. You cry more than ever as you throw your phone away. You break down and run to your bathroom, throw all of the medicine cans on the floor trying to find your razor. It's not there. You run back to your bedroom. It's not there either. You start to cry even more. You run outside to you trash bin and turn it around. You can't find it. You start screaming like hell and run back inside. You are all wet because of the snow but you really don't care. All you care about is cutting. You need to feel the pain that cleans your mind. You want to see your blood flowing everywhere. You want to die. Because you can't find your razor you decide to break one of Niall's razorblades. You put all of your strenght together and throw it on the floor. It breaks and now you have a new razor. Quickly you swipe away the tears from your cheeks and press the razor to your wrist. Slowly you make the first cut. Not that deep cut it's still a cut. It's time for the next cut. It goes a bit deeper. You're making the third cut as you hear the front door opening and Niall shouting hello to you. At that moment you cut too deep and give out a little whine. "Y/N, where are you? Are you okay? I heard that!" Niall shouts. You just sit there blood running down your arms not making a noise. Niall quickly runs to the bathroom door and slowly opens it. His face changes at the moment he sees you.

"OMG Y/N WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE!?" "Y/N CAN YOU HEAR ME!?" Niall shouts running to you. You don't even blink, just watch the blood running down on the floor. He hugs you tight as you cry. "I'm so-sorry Ni, I-I-I really am.." You stutter. He slowly caresses your back telling it's okay.  He helps you stand up and walks you to the sink. All you can do is cry quietly as he cleans your cuts and covers them up with patches. Then he picks you up and carries you to your bedroom. He lays you down and puts a blanket on you and then comes and lays next to you. "Babe.." Niall says quietly. You just start crying more and bury your head into his chest. "You could've told me you were feeling bad..." He continues. "I-I know Niall, but I w-was afraid y-y-you wouldn't u-understa-and" You stuttered between tears. "Of course I understand you Y/N! It's driving me crazy to know you've been suffering all by yourself when I've been right next to you." He says starting to sob. "I-I-I just didn't want to hurt you!" You cry to him. "It hurts me way more to know you can't talk to me about this. Now, tell me please what's this all about. I promise I'll understand." Niall assures you. "You promise you're not going to leave me, and you'll love me just as much as before?" You ask hugging him tight. "Of course, you silly girl!" He laughs a little. "Well I've just been so depressed because of all the hate I get from your fans and it's just hard for me to handle this all.." You tell trying not to break down again. "And I feel like I don't deserve you because you are an amazing boyfriend and I'm just a stupid depressed piece of poo.. How could I deserve you? You deserve so much better than I am..." You say sobbing. Niall looks you right in the eyes telling: "Y/N, first of all I'm so fucking sorry for our fans, I promise to make it stop. Second of all, you think you don't deserve me? Are you kidding me. I don't deserve you! You are the most amazing persone I've ever, EVER, met. You are like an angel, the most beautiful, breathtaking creature on earth. I hope you know how much I love you because the truth is, I'd be lost without you. I have no idea how I was so lucky to get you and I will never let go. You mean the world to me Y/N, I love you." "Oh Niall I love you too, more than anything! I promise not to do this ever again." You say pressing your lips to his. You two share a long, deep kiss, both crying. After a moment Niall wipes away your tears and says: "Y/N we'll get through this, together. Believe me" and kisses you again. You fall asleep and when you wake up you start a battle against depression but you're stronger than ever, because you have Niall by your side. From that moment to forever.

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Okay so this was the first thing I wrote in about 6 months so don't judge me too much. It was kinda hard to write. I'm really sorry if there's typos or grammar mistakes, but I'm not english so yeah.
Remember my dear, if you even feel like you need to talk, I'm always here. Tweet me @jennaHEARTniall and we'll figure out a way to chat in private. You should never be alone, and believe me when I say I know how you feel, I've been there and I still am.

Thank you for reading this imagine! Feedback is appreciated :D

SORRY

I'm soooooo sorry for not writing anything in a long long time, I will try to write something soon (just like I said two months ago...). I'm just so stressed because of school and life has been pretty hard for the last two years, and it doesn't get better (just been worse for 3 months, but now I think it's changing) so I really haven't had any urge to write.
I just came here to ask all of you my lovely readers to follow my new spam formspring SpamLove1D  and to be patient. I don't really even have any ideas of imagines/preferences to write so we'll see.

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Niall Imagine

#Imagine Niall is your best friend and that's why you are great friends with all of the other boys from One Direction. You've known Niall for about an year already, you met at Nando's. Together you've been through thick and thin, everything. He's always there for you and you are there for him. You broke up with your ex about 3 months ago and after that you and Niall have just became closer. He was with you every single minute of a day, he took care of you. If you needed to cry you cried on his shoulder. If you needed to talk you talked to him and he was listening. He heard every word you said and really cared. That's when this all started. You have had a little crush on him for all this time after you broke up. But you're not going to ruin your friendship by telling him, or that's what you think. The thing is: you don't know that he has a huge crush on you too. Actually, no-one knows. You haven't been talking that much for the past month because he's been away and you've had to do so much schoolwork. You miss all of the boys so much. Good thing is that they're coming back home tomorrow! Even though you miss them very much you're not going to the airport to see them because you just don't feel like being in the middle of the all of the attention. Suddenly your phone vibrates, you get text from Zayn. "Hi Y/N, are you coming to the airport tomorrow? We just would like to know cuz we miss you loads! x" You're a bit disappointed because it wasn't from Niall, but still it said that they all miss you so it's okay. "Noo.. I'm sorry. Can we meet later somewhere, all of us? x" You text back. You have no idea what you're going to say if he asks why not. "Ok then, it's okay.. but yeah of course we can! Do you want us to come to your place? x" Zayn answers. You hope they didn't get mad because you're not going to the airport. "Yeah, that'd be nice. I'll order pizza for us if some of you texts me when you're landed" You text him and put your phone away. You decide to clean little and then go to bed because you kinda know that next day will be a long one.

Next morning you wake up at 11am. You slept over 10 hours last night and you're feeling good. "This is going to be a wonderful day" You say to yourself and walk downstairs. Sun is shining and it's warm, a nice spring weather. Only thing you'd like to know is when the boys are back. At the same time the boys are sitting on a plane. Louis, Harry and Liam at 3rd row and Niall and Zayn at 7th. They're sitting so far away because someone messed up with their seats, but that's good actually, now Niall and Zayn can talk without anyone else to hear. Niall has decided to tell Zayn about his crush on you.
"Oh gosh what am I going to say.. I really need to tell Zayn about my crush towards Y/N, but how?" Niall thinks. Then he opens his mouth: "Umm Zayn..?" "Yeah Niall?" Zayn answers. "I was just wondering.. Do you have a crush on anybody right now?" Niall continues. Zayn looks at him and thinks a while. "Noo, I don't think so.. Do you?" "Yeah.. Or well, while we've been away from home I think I'm in love with her" Niall says with a smile on his face. Zayn smiles too. "That's great! Do I know that girl?" "I think so.. She's the most amazing girl I've ever met.. Her hair, eyes, voice, everything. I love it how I can talk to her about everything. I love it how she tells me everything.. I've been missing her so much and I can't wait to see her tonight" Niall tells. After a few seconds he realizes what he just told Zayn. Zayn is just grinning next to him. "Waaaaaaait blondie, are you talking about Y/N? You have a crush on Y/N!?" Now Niall's cheeks are red and he's just smiling there and Zayn understands that he got it right. A big smile appears to his face because Zayn if someone knows that you two would be perfect together. "Do you know if I have any chances to get her?" Niall asks him shyly. "Heck yeah you do!" Zayn answers laughing. "I mean, can't you see it? You two are best friends and obviously more than that! You two are closer than Harry and Louis!" "I quess so then.." Niall says and start smiling again. "I really can't wait to see her again, it's been so long." "You need to tell her tonight, I want you to be a couple as soon as possible, end of discussion, you'll tell her tonight" Zayn tells Niall, and that makes Niall quiet. "I don't know how... What if she doesn't feel the same.. What if I ruin everything.. Zayn can you tell her" Niall panics. "1. You will find a way. 2. She feels the same way, I know it. 3. You will not ruin anything, it will just make your heart finally complete and 4. I'm not telling her, you are." Zayn says determinedly leaving Niall speechless. "Fine." Niall says and acts mad, but he bursts into laughter in seconds. The clock is coming closer to 4pm and the boys' flight is about to land. You're trying to find a great movie for the night. You've looked every place in your house without finding anything. That's why you decide to text Zayn to tell that they have to bring a movie with them when they come, but at the same moment as you take your phone out of your pocket it vibrates. You got a text, from Liam this time. "Zayn told me to tell you when we're landed so here we are, finally! He also told me to tell you that we're there in 1 hour xx Love you!" You get a smile on your face, you're going to see them in one hour! "Thanksyouuu Liam xx Btw, could you pretty please bring a movie with you because I have nothing to watch cc:" You text back. "Ok lovely, we'll bring something xx" Liam tells. You go upstairs and change your clothes. You decide to wear blue jeans, a black top and white t-shirt. Your hair is nicely down and you have your heart earrings on. It's time to order some pizza before the boys come. You order 4 large pizzas because you know Niall will eat a lot, and well, they're boys so you need to have much food. Clock is around 5.30pm and you know the boys will be there anytime, and that's when the doorbell rings.. It actually doesn't matter because in 1 second they are inside your house with pizzas you ordered. "GUYS! Did you pay?" You laugh at them. "Of course sweety" Louis says and comes to hug you. Next person who hugs you is Liam. "I missed you so much" He whispers to your ear. Then you see Harry running towards you and he's just shouting your name. You almost fall over because he just jumps on you. He kisses your head and then lets you go and runs away. "Wow, what's wrong with him?" You say and start laughing. You see Zayn and Niall standing next to each other and you can hear them whispering. "Zayn! Niall! Nice to see you too!" You shout at them and grin a little. Zayn pushes Niall towards youu and he blushes a little. By that you start smiling and your hands get sweaty. "Hi Niall, I missed you so much" You say and hug him tight, tighter than the others. He gently rubs your back. "I've missed you too Y/N, but who would miss you?" "Let me tell you... Zayn obviously" You say a bit louder so Zayn can hear. He comes behind Niall and smiles sweetly. "Niall, can I hug her too to show I've missed her?" Zayn says and winks. You really don't know why he winked but whatever. "Well okay Zayn" Niall laughs and let's you go. Zayn hugs you and you smile at him. You are all very happy to see each other again. You have so many things to talk about.

As the afternoon goes by and nighttime comes closer you start watching the movie boys bought. It's a horror movie called Eden Lake. There's only one sofa in your house so some of yous need to sit or lay on the floor or take a chair. Niall is already sitting on sofa so you sit next to him, you got the best place to be already. There's one place left on the sofa. At first you think no-one's going to take it but then suddenly Harry jumps on it and Louis sits on his lap. Liam and Zayn sits on the floor and you start watching the movie. Usually you don't get scared while watching horror movies, but this movie is different. Before you know you're tightly in Niall's arms and he's telling you it's ok. You notice that Zayn and Niall are switching looks, something's going on. You give Niall an questionable look but he ignores it. You're leaning on his shoulder and he has his arms around you. The other boys are looking at you weirdly all the time. After the movie ends they leave you two alone to your livingroom. You hear the others going to upstairs. Because you're alone with Niall you start to blush a little. You lean away from his shoulder to calm yourself down before looking at him. "So Y/N... How have you been?" He asks shyly. "Fine.. Been quite busy with school stuff and missed you loads" You answer, still not looking at him. "How about you" "I've been great, though, missed you very much, but it's been amazing to tour around america, meet new fans and stuff." Niall tells. "Btw, Y/N, I'm sorry for not calling or texting you that much, I hope you didn't thing we forgot you, because honestly we didn't" He continues and blushes a little. You look at him with a smile on your face and butterflies flying around your stomach. You really want to tell how you feel, but just no.. Suddenly Niall comes closer to you.. Someone closes the lights and you see candles all over you, you have no idea how they came there because you didn't hear anyone coming down to set them. You're looking Niall in the eyes when he starts talking: "Y/N, I know we're best friends but I wanna be more. I'm in love with you. Every time I talk to you I get butterflies and I feel like the words are not coming out anymore. You're the most amazing person I've ever met, and I want to show to the world how much you mean to me, so Y/N, would you please be my girlfriend?" Your eyes gets teary. You wouldn't EVER believe this. You put your other hand behind Niall's neck and kiss him sweetly on lips. "I love you too Niall" You whisper as he lays you down to the sofa. He kisses you deeply as the other boys starts singing Take Me To Your Heart by Michael Learns To Rock. You spend an amazing night together and next day you see a pic of you and Niall kissing on twitter, posted by Harry. Everyone thinks you are perfect for each other.

Feedback? This is not that good but whatever, there might be a lot of typos and grammar mistakes because I'm too tired to read it again and English isn't my main language :DD

Zayn Imagine

#Imagine You're looking at a picture of you and Zayn, your boyfriend. Without any feelings you let go of the picture which slowly falls on the floor, not like a feather but not like rock either. You are deeply in your thoughts. Actually you have no idea what you're thinking. You just sit there, with an empty look in your eyes. They are glazed, your eyes are glazed. You don't feel anything. This happens for the first time in years. Something isn't right. You are tired and very fed up with this situation; Zayn is touring somewhere behind god's back [don't take seriously] and you're at home, alone, without anyone to take care of you, without anyone to talk to. Of course there's your friends and family & Danielle and Eleanor, but the only one you want to be taking care of you and to talk to is Zayn. He's been away for so long. You can't even remember how long, or when he's coming back. Zayn has been very busy for past three days so he hasn't even called you, but you understand. You want to hear his voice, you want to hug him, kiss him longer than ever. You want him to be home. As minutes and hours goes by you start wondering what he's doing. You wanna call him but you know he wouldn't answer. He will call you when he gets time... After 2 hours you've fallen asleep on the couch.

You wake up at about 11am because your back is aching so much. You grab your phone and notice someone has texted you. The text message is from Zayn, it says: "Morning babe, I love you. I'm sorry for not calling you in days, been very busy! I hope you can forgive me, coming home today xx Z." You smile a little, your boyfriend is coming finally home. You stop smiling quickly. Getting the text doesn't feel as good as it's supposed to. There's still something in your mind from yesterday. You can still say everything's not alright, something's missing, or not. You start to feel like you can't handle this relationship anymore. You try to find a reason for what you are feeling. It could be all of the media attention and fans, but then, you love the boys' fans, directioners. Of course it's not nice to have paparazzi around you when you're trying to have fun with Zayn and girls are stalking you everytime you go out but you've got used to it. Kinda..Almost..Ok not exactly. It annoys you especially when you try to hang out with your friends. All you want is a little privacy, but you understand well. Zayn is famous and as his girlfriend you are famous too, this is kinda the price you have to pay for being with him. That should be enough, but no. You are getting hate from some of the fans. Some of the haters sends you death threats, some of them are trying to edit pictures of Zayn to look like he's cheating on you. You decide to take a look at twitter to find out what's going on. You scroll down your timeline and see a tweet from Zayn telling he's coming home to see his beautiful girlfriend. Then you see some girls tweeting Zayn that you are not enough for him but you don't classify it as hate. You open your mentions and what do you see? People hating on you more than before. One of the tweets goes like this: "You flacking whore, don't you know what pretty means? Of course not hahaha you ugly cow." The next one is: ")': I feel bad for Zayn because he really trust a slut. Have an idea who I'm talking about, slut?" You're starting to feel sick because all of these tweets. Then one jumps to your face: "Y/N. I want to strangle you by my own, bare hands. I want to bury you alive. Can't you see? Everyone hates you! Die." That's enough. You close your twitter and walk into your kitchen to get something to eat, your eyes are wet and you're close to tears. "I need to be tough for today, then I can end this" You say to yourself and swallow your tears. As the day goes by you find yourself thinking deeply so many times that you can't even count them anymore. The clock is coming closer to 8pm and Zayn will be home soon. Before he comes you want to make some hot chocolate and think a bit more before you act. You think about when you're going to do it; right after Zayn has come home or a bit later or do you leave it for tomorrow? No, you gotta do it tonight, you can't wait longer because you really can't handle this all. While you're thinking Zayn comes home. "Babe I'm home!" He shouts and sees you sitting in kitchen. You've been living at Zayn's for the time he's been away. Before you can even think what he said you're in his arms, hugging him tighter than ever or actually he's hugging you. He kisses your head and smiles like an angel. Zayn takes some hot chocolate too and sits down. "How's my baby?" He asks and still smiles like never before. "Ok.." You say and stare at the table. Zayn notices everything isn't right. "Hey.. What's going on?" He continues your little convo while trying to catch your eyes...

You haven't said anything for 5 minutes already. Zayn's just staring at you and you still at the table. How can you ever say what you are going to say? He will be so hurt. "Zayn..." You say weakly. He takes your hands and tries to look you in the eyes again."I can't do this anymore.." You continue "I feel like I can't handle this relationship anymore, this is too much ok? I have no privacy, we have no privacy! Everyone hates me and wants me to die. And then, you're away so many times in a month, I just miss you all the time, especially when you can't call me. It's killing me.. This is killing me.." Zayn is almost crying and you just started. He can't believe his ears. "Y/N... You don't love me anymore? Or is it just about fans and paparazzi and that I'm away? Please tell me you still love me, even if you have to lie! I can't live if the only one who I believe in says she doesn't love me anymore.." Now he cries and you feel worse than ever but you've decided to be tough, you can't give up. "I love you.. But I just can't do this any longer! It would be a different thing if I wouldn't get any hate! Or at least not death threats, but right now it's just impossible to be in this relationship. I really hope you understand what I'm saying.. Goodbye Zayn, I love you" You stand up and start walking towards the door. One tear finds a way out to your cheek but you wipe it away quickly. Zayn's body is numb. He doesn't move or say anything. You pick your only bag you have with you and touch the doorhandle. So many thoughts are in your head. By seeing Zayn's reaction you don't know anymore if you should stay or just go. You have no idea what's on Zayn's mind. "Baby please stay.." He whispers after a while. This is not what you wanted to happen, not at all. You can't leave, you don't want to leave, but if this relationship will be like this you can't stay either. "Please Y/N take one more breath and really think are you going to the right direction.. It's ok if you really want to go.. But please, think one more time because I think there's nowhere else we should be tonight.. We belong together" Zayn says and wipes his tears. You drop your bag and walk to him: "I'm not promising not to leaving, but let's talk a little.." He takes your hand and leads you to the couch and you both sit down. He takes his wallet from his pocket, opens it and shows you a picture.. The same picture you were watching yesterday.. "Look at us.. We look so young even though it's been ONLY two years.. " You smile and give him a little laugh. "I really missed that laugh" He smiles back at you but then get's serious and starts talking again. "Look Y/N, if you go now, I promise I'll understand. If you stay I already have a plan.." "A plan.. Zayn what are you talking about?" You look at him with questionable eyes. "We'd go out.. Only us two. I really wanna make everything up to you. Just you and me for the whole day, no fans no paparazzi... -" "But how?" You cut him off. "Honey, there's still 4 other members in One Direction, boys will help me!" Zayn laughs and continues "So yeah, we'd go to a fancy restaurant and then spend the rest of the day at a private beach. I would really like to have another day like we once had.. Us two at beach, singing, writing songs.. Just making new memories to share with our future children!" Thought of you two as parents makes you smile like an idiot. "We can get through this, I will make the hate and death threats stop and I promise to spend more time with you.. I mean, if you stay..." Zayn ends his little speech. You look at him and your eyes are sparkling. For the first time in a long time you feel good, really good actually. "Well? I still can't read your mind Y/N" He laughs. "Oh Zayn" You whisper and shoot him down to the couch. You sit on his stomach and kiss his lips for minutes. "I love you Y/N, don't you ever scare me like this again" He says and kisses your nose. "I won't, I love you too Zayn, I really do" You say and press yourself close against Zayn's chest, happier than ever.

Feedback is very welcome xx I'm sorry if there's any typos, English isn't still my main language xx

Harry Imagine

#Imagine Harry has been your boyfriend for about 8 months already. He went to see his family for the weekend so you're spending it mostly with Zayn. Of course the other boys will be with you too, but not as much as Zayn. He's your best friend out of them besides Harry. You love both of them very much, in a different ways though, Zayn as a best friend and Harry as your boyfriend. You don't really know why Zayn is your best friend. Maybe because he's a great listener and you tell him a lot of things and that's why you became so close. He really understands you and helps you too. When you're having hard time with Harry Zayn's the one who helps you and lets you cry on his shoulder. Then there's your boyfriend, lovely, lovely Harry. He's the most amazing person you've ever met. He's funny and just knows how to make you smile. You can tell him everything too, I mean just EVERYTHING. Harry stays up for all night if you have to talk about something that's bothering you, or if there's something wrong. They both really care about you and the love between you and Harry is something unreal. It grows day by day and you don't know what would you do without him. Then comes the dramatic but... There's one thing you can't tell them, even to Harry. They wouldn't understand. You know you need to tell at least to Harry but you just can't. You think he would hate you. It's about you and your mind.. You've been a bit depressed lately but you don't know why. The depression just grows inside you, it doesn't go away. Sometimes when you sit on Harry's lap you feel like you want to scream and cry but you just swallow your tears because you don't want him to know. He would get too worried.. You think about what you did yesterday, these cut marks on your left wrist.. It's saturday today and you're going to Zayn's. You're wearing a hoodie to cover your arms and wrists so Zayn won't see what you've done to yourself. You just walk inside and shout Hello. You see him sitting on the sofa and you go sitting next to him. "What are we going to do today Zayn?" You ask. You notice he has been sitting there for a while because he looks like he's deeply in his thoughts. You wait for the answer. "I think we could watch some old pics, then eat maybe some pizza and watch a movie and just talk" He says after a little time and smiles at you. "Sounds veeery good! I love watching old pictures of us" You laugh and he hugs you. "I waited for that sweet laugh Y/N. By the way, Harry texted me today something like this: 'Behave well when you're around Y/N, I will kill you if you do something to her, much love bro xx H (:'" Zayn tells and starts laughing. "You know Harry" You say smiling and blushing a little.

After talking about Harry being so protective over you you start to look for some photo albums. Zayn brings you a chair so you can reach them. You roll your sleeves back without remembering the cut marks on your wrist and start to reach for the oldest one of the albums (which is quite far away). Of course he sees your cut marks but doesn't say anything. After 5 minutes you remember the marks. "Shit!" You shout and roll your sleeves back down. Zayn looks at you with a strange look. You think he didn't see them because he didn't ask anything. After what happened Zayn doesn't speak that much and again you can tell that he's thinking deeply something. You've watched every single pic Zayn has and you've been eating pizza at the same time too so now is time to watch a movie but obviously Zayn doesn't think so. "Y/N... Could you please follow me" He says and starts walking towards his bedroom. Zayn sits down and you sit next to him. "Is something wrong Zayn?" You ask but he ignores you. "Do you want to talk about something" He says "Like about anything." "Noo, not really" You say and realize that he saw your wrist earlier. Zayn looks hurt and takes your hand. You close your eyes as he rolls your sleeves up and watches your left wrist. "Are you sure Y/N..." He says and tries to look you in the eyes. You quickly look at him but then you just break down crying. Zayn holds you and you tell everything to him. "Does Harry know about your depression?" He asks worried. You just shake your head. You feel so bad, but it's good to know that Zayn didn't get mad but Harry's a different thing. "I hope you realize that you have to tell him" Zayn says. You can't believe your ears. "Zayn please don't tell him, I beg you! He will hate me!" You start to cry again. "He won't.." He says and comforts you. "I don't know can I promise not to tell because he's my best friend too" He continues and but you just stare at one corner. You spend the night with Zayn because he doesn't want you to be alone right now. About at 12pm you go home. "Hi babe, I will be home at 6 I think. We have to meet our management today with boys so I come after that, love you xx H" Harry texts. He will see Zayn..

The clock is 20 minutes past 6pm. You're sitting on your and Harry's bed as you hear the door opening. Harry is home. "Y/N...?" He shouts quietly, sounding upset. Zayn must have told him. You decide to ignore Harry and just sit there. Harry comes to your room. You have still the same hoodie on that you had yesterday. He walks towards you and you can tell he's not in a good mood. "How are you babe?" He asks. "Umm... I'm ok, a bit tired.." You answer with your eyes on the floor. "How about you Haz?" "Well what you think?" He says speaking a little louder. You just stare at him for a while and then look down again. "Show me" He says with a cold vibe in his voice. You look at him with teary eyes, begging him to stop whatever he's doing in his mind. "SHOW ME!" He shouts and you jump a little and start crying. "I knew you would be mad! You just make me suffer even more!" You shout and tears are flowing down your face like two rivers. Harry starts ripping your sleeves up your arms so he can see by himself. "Harry! Stop! You're hurting me!" You cry but he just continues. You stop fighting against him because you know he's stronger than you, you would just get hurt. Harry manages to get your sleeves up. He sees the deep cut marks on your left wrist. The only thing you can do is cry while he's looking at your wrist. "So it was true.." He whispers but then gets angry again "Why didin't you tell me Y/N!?" You can't say anything. You are scared and you don't want to fight with your boyfriend who you love, no matter what happens. "How can I even trust you again!? How can I be with you anymore if I can't trust you!? What else you haven't told me? You and Zayn have been cheating on me?" Harry shouts. He is totally furious. "WHAT!?" You shout back at him after hearing what he said about you and Zayn. "Harry you gotta be kidding me! Do you really think I would..?!" "How can I know you aren't lying?!" He shouts. "I wouldn't ever, do you hear me? EVER cheat on the one I love with every part of my heart!" You shout back. How can he even think like that? Harry stays quiet for a while, maybe he's trying to control his anger. "HARRY STYLES COULD YOU PLEASE TELL ME WHY YOU ARE ACTING LIKE THIS?!?!?!?" You ask shouting "I haven't done anything wrong to you!" "That's a lie and you know that! Why did I hear about your depression from Zayn and not you!? Are you telling everything to him before me?" He asks but he's still half shouting. While Harry's trying to calm himself down something happens in your head; all because of he mentioned Zayn. "HONESTLY HARRY! IS THIS ALL ABOUT ZAYN?!?!? YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE SO JEALOUS!" You shout louder than ever "And I didn't even want to tell him! I DIDN'T WANT TO! He just saw those cuts and then I had to explain!" And here you both go again, Harry gets angrier. You both are considering to leave the house, but none of you really does it. You've been fighting for an hour already. You are crying and he's close to tears too. "That's it, I'm done with all this, I'm done with YOU and your stupid little depression. Just go and kill yourself then if you want. I'm leaving now" Harry says suddenly and stars to walk away. "Ok Harry, just go and find a girl to fuck, I'M SO DONE WITH YOU TOO, I HATE YOU!" You shout after him and break down crying. The words 'Go and kill yourself' went straight to your head. Right now you really want to do like he said, you feel so bad but angry at the same time. How can he come home and just start fighting? How can he even say that go and kill yourself'...?

As days go by you are still mad at Harry. Every single one out of One Direction has been trying to call and text you but you're ignoring all of them, especially Harry. One day Niall comes behind your door and you open it because you don't know that Niall is there. "Y/N, I'm glad you're alright!" He says and hugs you tight. You two sit down on your sofa and that's when Niall realizes you've been only crying for all these days. "Harry came to us that night.." He starts "And his eyes were so red and swollen. He looked horrible.." You just look at him and start to cry again. Niall holds you in his arms and continues: "Harry told us everything" "Did he tell he told me to go and kill myself?" You ask and look at the ground. "Yes, he did. Liam and Zayn got angry like hell and I started to cry. Louis was just sitting there.. No-one really understood what happened, especially Harry" Niall tells. You can't say anything. Why in hell did he tell everything? Was he regretting? "Look, Y/N. Harry really is sorry and regrets everything he said and did.. But he was just so worried about you. I know it didn't look like it, but still.. I hope you give him another chance." Niall finishes his little speech, hugs you for the last time and leaves. You decide to take a look at the messages Harry has sent to you. "If I could only turn back time... I would do everything in a different way. I sould've been holding you in my arms, telling that 'everything's gonna be alright'. Gosh Y/N! I feel so stupid. I hope we can talk about what will happen next one day but right now I just want to say I'm sorry for being such an ass, I hope you can give me another chance xx With lots of kisses, your Harry" After reading that you change your mind and call him. In 15 minutes Harry is already sitting on your bed, in your house where you both should live in. "So.... Where is our relationship going..?" You whisper and look at your toes but he doesn't answer. You get disappointed and start to think he doesn't  really care but then he opens his mouth: "Umm.. You know they say that you realize what you have after you lose it.. That happened to me.." He keeps quiet for a moment and so do you. "Y/N I really don't want to lose you. You're the sun for my sky, you're the birds that fly high, you're all those shadows that passes me by, but you're the only one I wanna kiss goodnight. I was so stupid for starting to fight with you and now it's tearing me apart. Every time I see you I feel like flying. Your hair, eyes, lips, nose, cheeks, ears, body.. Every single part in you. I love my life but then I love you so much more. I just can't life without you." Harry's crying now. You hate to see him like this. He looks at you with teary eyes asking you to forgive him. "Harry I..." You start "I just can't forget what you said.." That's the final point, Harry breaks down, falls on the floor to his knees and just cries. "Oh Harry please don't cry!" You say after a while and fall next to him. You lock your arms around him and just comfort him. "Y/N Please frogive me... I don't want to be without you.. You're my everything" He whispers. You don't say anything, you just lift his chin up and kiss him, long and passionately. "I forgive you" You whisper back and kiss him again. "Thank you baby, I love you so much" He says quietly and you wipe his tears away. You spend the rest of the day laying in each others arms, not saying anything, just being there and listening to the beautiful silence.

Okay, this isn't my best ones, not at all but I hope you liked it. Please tell me what you think! There might be some things written wrong but that's because English isn't my own language. Thanks for reading!

Niall Imagine (like a dream I saw last night ;o)

#Imagine You are dating Niall from One Direction. You're sitting in English class, in the last row next to the window. Nobody knows you two are really dating besides you two of course, the other boys and Paul. You think he's in some other country far away from the country you live in. You miss him so, so much and because you are really bored you decide to text him. Before you start to write the text message someone knocks to our classroom's door. Everyone turns their heads to the door, including you. Your English teacher slowly walks there and opens it... You hear the person on the door saying: "I'm sorry to bother you, but is Y/N here?" You recognize his beautiful Irish accent; it belongs to your gorgeous boyfriend, Niall.

With a little hesitation your teacher manages to say: "Yes, she is." The door is fully open now so everyone can see him. Your classmates are totally breatheless and so is your teacher. They can't believe their eyes and they are just staring at him with their mouths open. Then almost at the same time they look at you and back at Niall. You are just sitting there in tears because you really don't know is this true or are you just dreaming. "I'm sorry but Y/N has to come with me now" Niall says and breaks the silence. You don't react at all so he walks to your desk to see if everything's ok. You look like a scared mouse because you are in shock. You can't move or say even a word. Niall touches your hand and then you realize that it's really true. You just jump in his arms and start to cry. He laughs and kisses you like never before. A few girls of your class looks are you with faces full of jealousy but you don't care about them, your boyfriend is there to protect you. Niall puts you down and takes your books. You two walk to your locker. You put your books to your bag. "Niall what are we doing now?" You ask smiling. "We're going to get something to eat and then go to your place" He answers and helps you to get your coat on. You have everything with you so you're ready to leave school for the rest of the day. On the way to home you stop at local Hesburger to get some food to eat.

You get home with Niall and food. You guys eat and talk about everything but still you don't know how he had time to come to you for a day or two before their next tour. You've asked it, but he just doesn't answer, so you let it be. You think that he didn't even tell Paul, but you don't really care. The main thing is that he's there. The clock is about 8pm. You start watching a horror movie called Friday the 13th (the original one). You lay on Niall's chest and he plays with your hair and kisses your head. You feel like the luckiest girl in the world, and maybe that's what you are. You are so scared during the movie but Niall's there to calm you down. His strong arms feels more safe than anything else. After the movie you go to your room, it's 10pm. Niall closes the door and locks it. He turns the light on and you lay down on your bed. You remember that you have some homework to do, so you do ít together. It takes only about 30 minutes and you're back in your bed. You're very tired. Suddenly Niall gets up, turns the light off and jumps on you. It's completely dark, you can't see anything. Niall's sitting on you, you feel his warm breath on your face. Almost out of nowhere he kisses you passionately and lays down next to you. He wraps his arms around you and starts singing a beautiful lovesong called If You're Not the One by Daniel Bedingfield. He strokes your hair at the same time. You slowly start to fall asleep and he notices it because of your breath is getting heavier. Niall kisses your forehead, then nose and then lips. Then he strokes your cheek and starts whispering: "Goodnight beautiful, I don't ever want to lose you my little princess. You are my everything and I hope you know that. I won't let anyone hurt you and I will always love you, no matter what others say or think. I believe I've finally found the love of my life." He wraps his arms around you again and sings again:
"If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?"
You are still a bit awake. You can hear the he's crying tears of pure happiness, it's the first time he does it. "I love you Niall" You whisper and press your lips against his chest. He smiles and looks at you but you fell asleep. He starts to drift asleep too. You two sleep peacefully the whole night, when you're in his arms nothing can hurt you<3

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That's it. Please leave a comment or something. If there's something wrong I say I'm sorry but remember that english isn't my main language. And sorry because this imagine isn't tha long comparing to my others ; s

Louis Imagine (a bit Larry Stylinson related)

#Imagine You're playing hide and seek with Louis. You've been searching for him for about 30 minutes alread but you can't find him. There's only one place where he can be and it's far, or well, not that far away from your home: Harry's place. You decide just to watch some TV before going to Harry's; if Louis don't come back. This is your and Louis' version of hide and seek. When he's hiding he usually goes to Harry's place and then you see which one of you gives up first. In your game giving up means that the one who "gives up" comes back home (or you go to Harry's place to find Louis) because that person can't be without the other any longer. You sit down and open the TV. "Nahh, noo, ew, not a good song, shitty movie, nope, news..." You don't find anything to watch so you order pizza. "Bwahhahahaa Louis doesn't know what he's missing" You laugh.

It's been about 2 hours already. "Louiiiiiis, please come back" You think but you're not going to give up, not yet. You know that Louis and Harry are having fun together, talking 'bout things and stuff and what you are doing? Nothing. You're getting really bored without Louis. He's your everything: when you're upset he makes you laugh. When you need to talk he's always there to listen. What ever happens he's always there for you, only for you. You can really trust him. He's funny, sweet and because of him you have 4 caring brothers more. After your deep thinking sesh you have to see Louis. You want to kiss him passionately and tell him how much you love him. You put on your shoes and coat. You find your keys and lock the door after you. The weather is wonderful, a bit cold, not too cold and sun is shining. You put your headphones on and start walking to Harry's. On your way you think about everything. So many girls would kill to be you! You're so happy and you can't stop smiling. Now you're in front of the right house. You just walk in and shout: "I give up! Louis give me a kiss!" He runs to you as fast as he's able. Before you know he's standing in front of you. "So you want me to kiss you, what about Harry, he'll get hurt" Louis says grinning mischievously. "Oh, you were having a Larry Stylinson quality time?" You say and act upset. Harry runs behind Louis' back. "What is she doing here? Did she give up? WHY Y/N!?!? I want to continue our little Larry Stylinson moment" Harry says while looking you up and down. Of course he's joking, like all of you. "Okay then. I quess I'm going" You turn around and sob a little. "Okay, okay, okay, okay baby you won! Don't go" Louis says quickly and hugs you from behind. You kiss his cheek. "I like that reaction" You smile. You two say bye to Harry and then walk home.

Louis opens the door and you take off your coat and shoes, so does he. Suddenly he takes you from the ground and carries you upstairs. You're both laying in your bed. Louis' arms are around you and your head is on his chest. "Louis.." You whisper. "Yeah Y/N, is everything alright?" He asks and strokes your hair. "Yeah, I just wanted to tell you that I love you soo very much and I don't ever wanna lose you" You say smiling widely. "Aww baby, you're so sweet. I love you so, so much too, I don't know where I'd be without you" Louis tells and his eyes gets wet. "...but I just wanna know.. Why me?" You say. Louis looks at you like never seen a human before "And why in hell my pretty baby is asking things like that?" "Well, I just thought about it.. I really feel like the luckiest girl in the world because I have you. Louis, I love you so much, don't you ever forget that. Sometimes it's so hard to realize that this really is true" You say and blush a little. "Oh baby, this is one of the reasons I love you, you're so honest and true. Aand for you to know, I don't really know why you, it just happened, but I'm sure that I'm not letting you go" He says and kisses you softly on lips. You two talk for few hours and then you just fall asleep while he's singing the most beautiful lovesong you've ever heard, Only For You, For LOUIS' Beautiful Girlfriend.

Okay, sorry this is not that long. Please tell me what you think. And I say this again, English is not my main language, so there might be a few things written wrong etc

Liam Imagine

#Imagine You are at a night club with your boyfriend Liam & the rest of One Direction because it's friday. The clock is coming closer to 3am and the other boys are really drunk. The club ís kind of their own but it's full of people you haven't even seen before. You're having so much fun there by talking and getting to know people you don't know yet, dancing and well, taking care of boys with Liam. You don't drink because Liam doesn't and you don't want him to watch after the boys alone. Especially Louis and Harry are getting really wild. Zayn is still quite shy and not talking to people, but he's dancing, very awkwardly.. You have no idea where Niall is at the moment so you decide that Liam can take care of him. Then you see both of them; Niall and Liam standing next to a table. Liam is trying to get Niall to sit down for a while but he just wants to dance his irish dance. "Like I said" You laugh and start watching Harry and Louis dancing sexily on a table. "Don't.... HAHAHHHAH.... Even.... HEHEHEHEHHE... Care.... HIHIHIIHIHIHIHIH.... About.... HAHAHAHAHAHHAHHA... The.... HOHOHOOHOHOHOH.... TABLE BREAKING.... HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA" They're trying to sing with no sucession. "You only wanna have a laugh..obviously" You shout back and then the table breaks. "YEAH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH" Louis and Harry laughs after a few minutes of silence. They're rolling on the floor and laughing like little kids and of course you need to take the broken table away and clean. Liam leaves Niall alone with just himself. "It seems like we're the only clear people here" He says and helps you to clean. "You think so?" You say and show your wonderful smile to him. After cleaning the pieces of that broken table you two sit down and drink some coke.

After just sitting down and talking with Liam he asks you to come dancing. "Liam you know we need to look after the boys, especially Larry" You say laughing and looking around. "Where's Niall btw?" You continue. Liam looks around too and after a while he sees Niall sitting under a table talking to something. "Oh, don't worry 'bout him, he's having fun with..himself I think" He says and gives you a weird look. "Please come with me, we'll see the boys while we're dancing" He begs. You think a little moment, give him a little kiss and get up as a yes. You love to dance with Liam because you don't have to think how stupid you look, you can just let go and forget everything. Suddenly he stops dancing and laughs a little. "Babe I'll be back in a little moment, I think Harry and Louis needs help" He says and starts walking away. You turn around and see Harry sitting on Louis' shoulders. "Oh this won't end-" You was about to say when Harry drops to the floor before Liam get's there. Louis of course laughs like crazy and after a little shock Harry laughs too. Liam needs to check if he's really okay so it takes some time to him to come back. Right after that someone taps your shoulder and you turn around. You see a beautiful boy with green and blue mixed eyes and a short brown hair with lighter highlights. He's taller than you and very muscular. "Is it you Y/N?" He says with a wonderful, familiar smile on his face. Now you think you recognize him. You two were best friends when you were little, you had your "first kiss" with him and you were hopelessly in love with him to the moment you saw Liam for the first time a couple of years ago. "Oh my god, Nick! I can't believe you're here!" You say while hugging him with tears in your eyes. You haven't seen each other in 3 years because he moved away and the last time you talked was about 5 years ago because he changed. Millions of thoughts are running around your head. "You're still so little Y/N" He says. You try to move but he doesn't let you go. "Yeah..haha" You fake a little laugh. You notice that he's drunk, so you think it's better to go to somewhere else. After 5 minutes of hugging he lets you go and you take him to a peaceful corridor where you can talk without people watching and listening -or seeing you. "So, how are you these days?" You ask. "Umm.. I'm okay, moved back a few weeks ago" He answers while not looking at you in the eyes... "Okay then.." You say while looking back to the dancefloor to see if Liam is there but he's not. After a while Nick breaks the silence: "You're quite damn hot u know?" You start to feel uncomfortable with him, so you don't answer and suggest to go dancing together. You are about to walk towards the dancefloor but suddenly Nick grabs your waist and presses you against the wall and starts kissing your neck. "I said you're hot.." He says. "No.. Nick I have boyfriend" You squeal but he doesn't care. "You can have two" He says and puts his hand under your shirt. "No!" You shout while tears are streaming down your face. He shuts you up with a long kiss. You try to get away but he's too strong. Now Nick's trying to take your shirt off. You can't do anything, your body's numb. "Y/N! What's happening in here!?" You hear Liam shouting and he pushes Nick away from you. He tells Zayn to walk you home because he's not that drunk anymore. You are able to see people staring at you. Zayn grabs your hand and pulls you close to his body. You cry hysterically all the way home and when you get there you ask Zayn to stay with you until Liam comes.

It's already 7 in the morning when Liam comes home. Zayn is still there with you and you haven't slept at all. You run into Liam's arms and start to cry again. He carefully pics you up and carries to your bed. "Love, I need to talk with Zayn for a few minutes, ok?" He asks and kisses your forehead. You just nod and bury yourself under the blanket. Time goes by as you can hear Liam and Zayn talking about something but you don't know what. Then you hear Zayn saying "Okay, night. Take care of her" and walking out the door. Liam sighs loudly and comes to your room. He removes his shirt and lays next to you. "Hey, babe. Are you okay..?" He asks worried. You sit up and start to cry, again. You're just so shocked about what happened. Liam sits next to you and takes you in his arms. "I'm so sorry Y/N for not being there.. I wish I could do something but I relly can't" He says sobbing. You look at him and say: "No.... You don't have to say you're sorry" He takes your face in his hands, slowly strokes your cheek and kisses you on the lips: "But I still am." You feel a tear flowing down his face to yours. "Don't cry Liam, it wasn't your fault and I'm ok.." You say and hug him. You two lay down ready go to sleep even though the clock is already quarter to 8 AM. "You need to rest babygirl" Liam suggests. You put your head on his bare chest and he has his arms around you. "Goodnight Y/N. I love you from the bottom of my heart and I don't wanna ever lose you. I promise to take better care of you in the future, I'm not going to let anyone hurt you.." Liam says. You stroke his arm and slowly fall asleep thinking what would you do or where would you be without him<3

Feedback is very welcome as always xx Remember still that English isn't my main language, so I might spell something wrong and stuff (: 

Louis Imagine

#Imagine Today it's been equally one year since you and Louis from One Direction broke up. It all happened very quickly. You were so happy together and suddenly he was kissing another girl, and after all you still have feelings for him but you don't wanna admit it even to yourself. You've seen him only once or twice after your break up because seeing him makes you wanna scream and shout, smile and cry, love him and hate him and the most of all, kiss him. You went for a walk, but right now you're sitting outside in some stupid park because you have nothing else to do. You don't have a boyfriend and you're dreaming about your ex. "What a wonderful life" You think out loud. Some little kid with a brown hair looks at you, he reminds you about Louis. "Of course I'm just thinking of him at our 1 year ...break up anniversary?" You continue thinking and get up. It's kinda sad that you had an amazing relationship with maybe the most amazing boy you know and it only lasted for half an year, but what you can do? He kissed someone else and you couldn't take it. You don't wanna go home yet because you have so much more things to think, so you continue your little walk.

"I actually don't even know why we didn't talk about that kiss.. I can't stop blaming myself! What if I wouldn't left.. We'd still be together? No, I can't do this to myself, why do I keep thinking about him and NO I don't have feelings for him anymore...I think... But how happy would we be? This is better for me, I swear" You think. It was that one chilly summer night. You were at Louis and Harry's houseparty. The whole One Direction was there and there were Harry's and Louis' friends too, boys and girls who you didn't know. At first you had quite fun time hanging with the 1D boys, especially with Zayn because he didn't want to dance either. Harry and Louis were busy with talking to their friends. Out of One Direction Zayn was the closest to you, after Louis of course. While you two were talking, Louis was dancing with some people, including some of his and Harry's slutty looking friends. It looked like they didn't even have clothes on. "Those bitches.." You mumbled jealously to Zayn and he just laughed. "Don't be scared Y/N, he really loves-" Zayn was saying but something stole his attention. You turned your head, and when you looked at the same direction as Zayn you saw Louis kissing one the "slutty girls". You felt tears streaming down your face and you were frozen. As soon as Louis realized that you were looking he stopped. He ran right to you and tried to take your hand but you were already moving. You were lost in a really familiar house and you couldn't think anything. Somehow you got outside and started running. You ran as fast as you were able to imagine. Five minutes later Louis was outside too but you were far away, almost home. When you got there you stormed to your bathroom. You looked like a mess; you had mascara all over your face, you were sweating, you were crying like you were never cried before and most of all your hair was a pure mess. You collapsed on the floor and texted Zayn: "WHAT IS THIS ZAYN, TELL ME! YOU SAID I DON'T HAVE TO BE SCARED!" You already knew that the party was over because of what happened and the boys were somewhere together, maybe coming to your house. "It's over, don't you even dare to talk to me" You texted Louis and turned your phone off. You tried to get up but you felt so dizzy so you decided to crawl to your room and wish for this nightmare to end... After that day and night there were no Y/N and Louis. Of course Louis tried to explain everything during the next few days and Zayn tried to call to you but you didn't want to listen to them or talk to them, especially to Louis. All you wanted to do was forget everything you and Louis had. You wanted to die... Then the first time you saw Louis again was 3 months after everything when you were somewhere in London. He was with Harry and they said Hi to you but you didn't respond. Second time was when you went to their backstage after one of their concerts in London because you wanted to see the other boys and talk to them. You've been talking with Zayn a couple of times besides that London thing. He's still a good friend of yours but you don't see him that often. He once said that Louis regrets everything he did and misses you so much but you didn't care, because you still tried to forget everything, including your feelings. And here you are now. One hard year has gone by so slowly and you're missing everything you had with Louis and the boys. Now you're standing right in front of your house, ready to go inside and take a shower.

You drop your towel on the floor when you come to your room after a long shower. You put on your favorite t-shirt, which Louis gave to you and shorts. "So much beautiful memories.." You sigh and walk downstairs. Your phone vibrates as you  get a text message from Zayn, "Hey Y/N, what r u doing tonight?" You read out loud. "What the heck Zayn.. Why is he texting to me.." You think but answer "Nothing.. about to go to bed soon." You wait for 10 minutes but he doesn't answer "He's probably laughing at me because I'm going to bed at 9 PM at friday" You say and decide to go to bed. The clock is ticking and you can't sleep. It's almost 11pm. You still remember that you saw Louis kissing that bitch at 11.07PM. You wanna be asleep till that. You start to fall asleep sooner than you think, but then something wakes you up. Someone's singing outside..

"Look me in the eyes, I tell you I love you.
Hold on tight, and show me what you care about.

I need nobody else when I’m with you.
But now when you’re away, I miss you.

Tell me how to win your heart without crying.
Tell me what I gotta do if you come back.
‘Cause I know what I did,
And yeah I know that you’ve suffered;
I’m the one to blame.
Without you nothing is the same..

I saw your tear-filled eyes when you saw me kissing.

I didn’t believe it before you ran away.
You know this hurts, and only you can save me.
What you’re gonna do? I wish I knew..."

 It sounds like... LOUIS. You grab your phone and look at the clock: 11.07PM. Now you know why Zayn asked what are you doing. You run downstairs and then outside. A part of you wants to kiss him and take him back right away, but a part of you wants to punch him right in the face and tell him to 'fuck off'. Instead of those you say: "L-l-louis.. Wh-what are you doing here..?" You are shaking. He looks at you with tears in his eyes. "Y/N... It's been one year since I was an total idiot for the very first time with you. I don't know what really happened.. I think it was.." You cut him off: "I don't wanna know what happened, I know what I saw and that's enough... What you're doing here?" "I'm sorry. I need you more than anything. This year has been so tough for me.. I wanted to call you, but I didn't wanna bother you.. And now-" His voice breaks and he falls to the ground, crying. Now your eyes are getting teary. You sit down next to him and stroke his back, trying to comfort him but at the same moment you're trying to think what to do now.. "Louis?" You say weakly. "Y/N..." He answers but doesn't look at you because he already knows that you're going to ask him leave. "I love you Louis" You whisper and start to cry. He slowly lifts his head up and looks you in the eyes. Then he stands up and gives you his hand, you take it and he helps you to stand up too. Within one second he kisses you and the tears starts streaming down to your faces. After a long kiss he hugs you tight. "I love you too Y/N, I have always loved. Please be mine again, I can't live without you anymore.." You kiss him as a 'yes' and then you go inside. You spend the night together in eachothers arms, only silence is talking<3

Feedback please x <3 That song (A-part & chorus) Louis was singing is one of songs written by ME (@_imagining1D/@jennal0l), so if you liked it I would love to know too. There might be something spelled wrong, English isn't my main language xx (:

Kony 2012 (this is IMPORTANT)

KONY 2012.

We need to stop Joseph Kony and the LRA. We can make it better, you and me, we can make a change. If you pay your attention for 30 minutes and really care, you can be a part of Kony 2012. A part of something that really matters. You can copy this post and post it to tumblr, to facebook, to your blog, to your website, to everywhere! Please, we need to get this information to people who don't know about Joseph Kony and what's going on. We need to tell people about Kony2012.

Who is Joseph Kony and what is LRA? Joseph Kony is the worst living criminal. He abducts children and hands them guns to kill other people, even their parents. He uses the girls as sex slaves. The children he abducted are called the Lord’s Resistance Army, also known as, The LRA. He has abducted over 30,000 children and uses them as kid soldiers in Central Africa. He remains at large because he is practically invisible to the whole world. That’s why we’re making him famous. Let us make him famous to stop his crimes.

 

 

 

 

 

Niall Imagine

#Imagine "What the fuck I'm going to do?" You say while watching a POSITIVE pregnancy test. No. This can't be happening, you just can't be pregnant. Luckily Niall, your boyfriend for 6 months, has been out with the rest of One Direction and their girlfriends for a couple of hours now. They asked you to join them but you didn't go because you were feeling sick. Of course Niall wanted to stay home with you, but you didn't want him to miss some great party again. You start to feel a bit better because you know why you were feeling so sick and leave the bathroom. You walk to the living room and sit down. "How I'm going to tell him" "What if that test lied.. What if I'm not pregnant? No.. It can't lie, but what if..." "How long I've been pregnant?" ... Your head is full of questions with no answers. You try not to think about how to tell to Niall or anything else about the not-so-sure fact that you're pregnant. You start to watch CSI. While sitting there your phone beeps as you get a text: "Baby I hope everything's okay, I'll be home at midnight, don't want you to be alone longer. Love you xx". That's from Niall. Suddenly you start to feel sick again. You run to the bathroom and throw up. "Yup, I'm pretty sure that this is what this is" You sigh and go lying to your bed.

It's 30 minutes over midnight and Niall comes home. "I'm so, so, so sorry babe it took me a bit longer!" He shouts and you wake up. Somehow you fell asleep while lying there. You murmur something with a sleepy voice before noticing he's already right next to you. "I'm sorry I woke you up" He says softly and wraps his arms around you. You turn around so you can see the perfection; His blonde hair, blue eyes, soft cheeks, delicious lips, everything. "I missed you" You whisper and put your head on his chest. He kisses your head which tells you he missed you too. "You're feeling better than earlier?" He asks with his soft voice. "Mmmm.." You answer while trying not to fall asleep before he does. You're keeping yourself awake by thinking how you're going to tell him, and when. You're a bit worried about the next morning.
[YOUR THOUGHTS]
What am I going to say if I start to feel sick again and then my head explodes and we start to fight? If he doesn't know I'm pregnant eventually he drives me to hospital because of throwing up every single morning. I need to tell him as soon as possible before something happens between us because I'm not so sure about my emotions anymore. No, of course I'm sure that I love him, stupid me, but the other emotions. For example: I always explode when it's "the time of the month" so what happens when I'm pregnant!? I don't know. And what if he doesn't even want a child? What if he leaves us all alone? What if he gets angry? What if..........
[BACK TO NORMAL]
Now you don't even want to sleep.. Niall notices that you're not alright. "Babe, what's wrong?" He asks and looks directly at you. You pretend that you didn't hear his question so you just lay there with your eyes closed. Niall starts to sing Moments and you slowly fall asleep. Niall finish the song and wishes you Goodnight and kisses your head.

It's 12pm when you wake up. Niall's downstairs making breakfast and singing very loudly. You actually forgot that you're pregnant, so you get up very fast without thinking and there it comes. You start to feel really sick & run to bathroom. You lock the door and after a while you throw up. Niall hears it so he comes behind the bathroom door. "Y/N, are you ok? Let me in" He says but you don't answer. You're scared about this situation. Now you can't even think that you are not pregnant because obviously you are. You start to cry and helplessly sit on the floor. "Y/N please! Speak to me, or at least open this goddamn door!" Niall shouts. You get up weakly and finally open the door, still crying. You throw yourself in his arms and he carries you back to your bed. You lay there for hours without saying a word. His arms are tightly around you. Then Niall breaks the silence: "So... Do you wanna talk?" You don't say anything. You don't know why but you get a bit angry and he sees it. "I quess you don't.." He continues after 1 minute's silence. "Oh fuck..." You think before the anger comes out. You get up quickly and run downstairs. Of course Niall runs after you. "Seriously Y/N! What's wrong with you?" He shouts. He's getting angry too. You start searching your bag without answering him. He grabs your hand but you just run to next room. "Stop! Y/N! You're like a different person" Niall shouts. He's very confused. "What's happening to me? What is this?" You think and you are just as confused as Niall is. "I'm.. I just need to leave for a while!" You shout and then try to calm yourself down. "Okay then.." Niall goes to your living room. He's in tears. He doesn't know what's happening. You need to tell him, now. He hears that you stopped packing your bag which you found a couple of minutes ago. "Niall..." You whisper and sit next to him. Niall swallows his tears and says: "Yeah, babe?" "Do you still wanna talk? And btw, I'm not leaving" You tell. His eyes gets brighter but he doesn't smile. "Yeah, sure, whatever" He says to you and as you carefully lean against his chest. Suddenly he wraps his arms around you. "So.. Remember yesterday when I felt sick and didn't want to come out with you..?" You ask after thinking how to start. "Yup, and I wanted to stay here but you told me to just go with the others." Niall answers. You don't know how to continue so you decide just to say it. You turn around and now you see his face. You take his hands and sigh. "Niall. I'm pregnant." He stares at you with his mouth open and you're about to cry again. "I hope you're not mad and not leaving me-" before you have time to finish the sentence he kisses you passionately. After a long kiss he hugs you. "Niall I'm so scared.." You say while he's rubbing your back. "Oh baby. I know, I'm scared too but also I'm so freaking happy! I can't believe I'm going to be dad! Y/N, we're going to get through this, we will be awesome parents. Trust me." Niall says with this little light in his eyes. "I trust you" You say and wipe your tears away. "I love you Y/N." He smiles. "I love you too Niall" <3

I'm sorry, this kinda sucks. But please tell me what you think xx btw, don't judge me if I spelled something wrong, I'm not perfect and English is not my main language (:

Harry Imagine

It's 3am and you can't sleep. Mostly because you're missing your boyfriend Harry like crazy. And this night is not the first one, but maybe the worst you've had already. Nothing's been alright since he went on tour with the rest of One Direction. This is the first time he's away for a long time while you're together. "3 months has gone too slow..." You whisper, "Still 1 left, luckily". You get up and make yourself coffee, which surely helps you to fall asleep. While drinking it you start to think about how you met Harry. "The story of my succession" You smile while your eyes gets teary. You start to sing Here Without You by 3 Doors Down while remembering that day which changed your life...

'It's a beautiful, warm day in sunny London where you're gonna spend the whole summer. You are really, really exited. Today it's gonna happen, you'll meet One Direction for the first time in your life. Your plan is to mesmerise their, well, Harry's heart with just being the beautiful you. You're standing in front of the mirror, looking at yourself. You're wearing good looking, but comfortable clothes to wear; beige jeans & black shirt with neon green, blue and pink stripes in it. You have your converse bag on your shoulder and red shoes on your feet. You take the last deep breath and step outside. You put your sunglasses on the top of your head and look around while sun beautifully tickles your skin. "Now, where I have to go?" You ask yourself while frowing your eyebrows. "Look right, look left and now we go" You say and start walking. You decide just to walk around London until you see the place where One Direction's going to be. Actually, you don't really know are you going to the right direction, it just feels right. After walking an hour or two you see lots and lots and lots of people outside a huge building. "Oh, I must be in the right place" You say with a proud grin on your face while getting even more exited. You run behind that huge group of screaming girls, and without thinking you start to make your way to in front of them all. Finally! You've gone through hundreds of girls. You lean on a weak rail while breathing nerviously. One day ago you didn't even believe that you're doing this; meeting them. And now you're standind right in front of the place where One Direction will be signing stuff. You feel like you're freaking out; you're so happy and exited but the people behing you are pushing you against the weak rail and suddenly you start feeling really sick. There it goes, you throw up and then everything's blurry...

The next thing you remember is waking up on a hospital bed with a lot of people around you. There are nurses, doctors and some people you don't know. Wait. "Did I hit my head while I ...passed out... I quess?" You ask. "No, I mean, I don't know" Someone says, "I think you didn't. We... I just saw you passing out in front of all the people" the voice continues. You try to open your eyes even more and now you see them. "Oh my gosh!" You think while looking around one more time. One Direction is sitting next to your hospital bed. The voice which just spoke to you were Harry's. You lay there without saying a word, just looking at them like a fool. You hear that Niall's about to laugh, but Harry hit's him so he stays quiet. "So I passed out" You say like they don't know yet. All the boys nods at the same time. "And how did you see I passed out? I mean you weren't even there" You continue. The boys are looking at Harry who starts to blush. Then he opens his mouth: "Well.. We were inside that building, and... I was looking at you. You looked so exited and beautiful and I thought that 'I need to meet her!' and then you threw up and passed out." "Harry started to scream like crazy!" Lou says and Harry blushes even more. "Shut up you idiot, I didn't scream. I was just worried about her... Wait! I don't even know your name!" Harry says quickly. You giggle a little and tell him your name. The other boys -except Zayn who is deeply in his own world- are looking first at you and then at Harry who's smiling widely. Then Liam opens his mouth and breaks the silence saying: "So umm.. I don't wanna be rude, but if you are okay do you mind if we leave now? We need to go back to that signing." You feel a bit disappointed and sad but you say that "It's okay." Harry's still watching Liam with his mouth open. Then he looks at you sadly and sighs. "This may sound a bit weird, but can I get your number and twitter... So I can ask you how you feel?" He says while looking down. You take a little piece of paper and write your twitter name & number down and hand it to him. He smiles at you and kisses your hand which mades you feel like the luckiest girl in the world. Later that day you leave the hospital and go back to your apartment. You eat a little and then open your laptop. First you log in to twitter and you see that a bunch of new people is following you; including all of the boys. You check your mentions, there's a couple of people hating on you & congratulating you 'cause the boys followed you. Then you check your DM's and there it is. A message from Harry. "Hey Y/N. Like I said I wanted to know how you feel, so how you feel?" You giggle for his clumsy message but still you are extremely happy. Harry freaking Styles DM'ed you!! You talked to him. One Direction took you to the Hospital when you passed out. You are fangirling so hard that you almost forget to answer. "Hey Harry. I'm just fine. I don't know where would I be without you x" You smile a little and then send the message. After a rough and totally amazing day you go to sleep.'

That all happened about 6 months ago and you're still in London. Shortly, a few weeks later Harry asked you out. You had a great time at your favorite restaurant and then you two walked down the streets of London at moonlight while talking about everything. After all he kissed you romantically at your porch, said "Goodnight, beautiful" and went home smiling widely. The perfect first date. In 1 month you were officially a couple. So now you are Harry's girlfriend, best friends with the boys, and a great friend of Danielle & Eleanor. Suddenly you don't want to drink coffee anymore, but you don't want to sleep either. "This is going to be a boring night" You say and stand up thinking what to do. You know you should sleep but because of coffee and your feelings you just can't. You are kinda addicted to your boyfriend Harry, but you can be alone too. Or you thought you could be. For a few weeks to one month yeah, but for 4 months!? Never. Luckily there's just one month left and then you are allowed to spend more time with Harry that you can even imagine. Smile appears to your face again but you're bored to death so you decide to try to sleep. You are still sad, but remembering how you met Harry makes you always a bit happier. You don't even realise how lucky you are. So many girls would kill just to be you. You lay down and close your eyes. You start to fall asleep when suddenly you hear this weird but quiet slam. "I forgot to lock the backdoor!" You whisper frightenedly at the same time as you quickly leap up. You are scared as hell; Harry's in the US and someone else's in your house with you. You don't know what to do. You are breathing faster than ever, adrenaline is running in your vains and you're panicing. You hear unknown steps, they're coming closer. You are just sitting on your and Harry's bed while the person's coming closer. Suddenly you just jump under the blankets, praying that the person doesn't find you. With tightly closed eyes you lay there, weakly, quietly breathing. You have no idea how long you've been there. You are too scared to open your eyes, but you can't stay there forever either. After a few minutes of thinking, you decide to open your eyes -you are still under the blankets. Then starts to happen. Someone sits down to your bed and you close your eyes. You are trembling and you've been under the blankets for a long time so it starts to be hard to breath. Still you don't know what time it is. Only thing you wish right now is Harry to come home, and the person sitting next to where you are to go away without noticing you. You feel that someone tries to take the blankets off. You murmur something and the person starts to giggle. Then you realise it. "HARRY!" You shout and start to cry. He laughs at you while holding you in his arms. He strokes your hair while you just cry. You were so scared and it was only Harry. Luckily it was only Harry! There's just a couple of things you really don't understand, so you ask him: "But Harry, how you are here? You should be in the US! And why did you just sneak in? I was scared to death! Seriously Harry, don't laugh! I almost got an heartattack! This is not funny, Harold. I'm getting mad if you see..." Harry just laughs at you while you try to look mad and wait for an answer. After 15 minutes of laughing he gets serious and answers: "I just couldn't take it anymore, I wanted to come home and see your beautiful face. I've been feeling lonely for 3 months already. Nothing seems to be right when you're not close to me. I don't wanna ever, ever again be away for that long. I'm so sorry if you've been feeling lonely too, but now I change it. It's just us for a month." "But what about the boys and directioners? What about the tour?" You ask while smiling widely with tears in your eyes. "Yeah, that... The management actually doesn't even know I left, so I assume that they are calling me right when I open my phone. I hope that boys can make through the rest of the tour without me and well, I quess that directioners are not going to like this, but I don't really care, not anymore. You're the only thing I need" He says and lifts your chin up. You see his beautiful green eyes staring at you, gorgeous brown curls calling for you to touch them and soft lips waiting for you to kiss them..<3

Don't judge me if I spelled something wrong, English is not my main language xx Comments are very welcome!

Zayn Imagine

#Imagine You're eating breakfast with Zayn. You are really depressed all the time and you've been hurting yourself too but you don't want to tell him because you're afraid of his reaction. You're sitting there with only wearing a hoodie which hides your arms & wrists. "It's weird to ask how are you because we spent last night together -as always-, but how are you?" He says. You giggle a little. "I'm just fine" You say while smiling, but you are looking sadly down. Sometimes it's just hard to smile for him and even to try to look him in the eyes. Especially when he's so happy and you are depressed. That's what you get when you try to hide your feelings as well as you can. "Are you sure?" He asks suddenly. You freeze. The smile you faked a minute ago disappears. You try to get it back. "Yeah, I'm just a bit tired, but still fine" You say nervously. He knows you too well. You know you can't lie for him no longer, you got to tell him what's going on somehow, but that's the problem, you don't know how. You reach for something on the table and then it happens. He sees your cutted wrists as your hoodies sleeve goes too much upwards. Tears are flowing down your face and in one second he takes you in his arms.

You don't know what to think, should you just run away and leave him clueless? So many different thoughts are running in your head. You think that now he's going to leave you and you start to cry more. "Baby..." He's voice cracks and you hear him sobbing. You look up, his in tears too. Of course now you're feeling even more bad because first he saw your wrists, then you started to think he's gonna leave you, and now he's crying because of you. "Zayn I.. I don't know what to say.." You whisper. "Maybe you could first explain why you've done that to yourself, I thought you could tell everything to me, but I quess I was wrong.." He says sounding disappointed, hurt, scared and a bit angry you think, but somehow you hear that he's worried about you too. "I'm just so depressed all the time! Everything I do is not going right. Everything around me is falling on my shoulders. I couldn't take this anymore. so I.. I.. I cutted myself.. I'm, I'm so sorry Zayn, I really am! I was afraid of your reaction of this whole depression thing, I though you'd leave me, and now you're angry and you still can leave me. I wanted to talk to you but I would've depressed you too" You say and you start to cry again. "Can I see your hands..?" He asks. You raise your hoodie's sleeves and show him your arms and wrists. They are full of cuts. He touches the cuts. One by one. You have no idea what he's doing or thinking. You're about to run away crying but Zayn hugs you tight and kisses your head. His eyes are in tears. "Baby you can talk to me about everything. Do you understand, everything. You know that we can get through everything together. When you're hurt, I'm hurt too. It drives me crazy to see what you've done to yourself, but I'm not angry, and totally not about to leave you. Just talk to me, and things gets better, I promise" He says and you hug him. He lifts your chin up, looks directly to your eyes and kisses you slowly. You can feel a tear falling from his cheek to yours. After a slow romantic kiss he hugs you again. "Don't worry baby, everything's gonna be alright. We are in this together" He says and you smile.

You spend the all day just talking to each other about everything or mostly about your depression and thoughts. After all it wasn't that bad. Zayn is the person who you want to spend forever with. He understands you and loves you for who you are. With him you can be just yourself. Sometimes you don't even realise how lucky you really are to have him. When the night comes and you two go to bed he says: "Y/N, I need you to promise me that you will never ever cut yourself again. If you feel bad, you know that I'm here only for you. I hope you know that it really hurts me to see you like you were this morning. I don't want to feel that pain ever again. So please realise that you can always talk to me about evrything. I know I've said it a million times today, but you need to know that. And also that I can't live without you, so don't hurt yourself. We can always find the solution to everything when we are together". You smile widely, and this time your smile is real. You couldn't be more happy. "I promise" You whisper and kiss him gently. You move your head to his chest. He starts to sing Moments to you and you slowly fall asleep with a huge smile on your face. "I love you beautiful, don't you forget that" He whispers before falling asleep too<3

I'd be glad to get some feedback xx Don't judge me if there's something wrong, English isn't my main language (: